Depressing state of the States

I recently tried to respond to an email about this debunked "terrorist dry run."

http://www.snopes.com/politics/religion/flight297.asp

My response:

Also, although it wasn't mentioned on this snopes article, and as soon as I read this, I realized why they were celebrating. In November, there is a rather big Muslim holiday where EVERYTHING shut down. It coincided somewhat with Thanksgiving for us while I was deployed to Afghanistan in 2009, when we all sort of did minimal operations and had some turkey... the Afghans (including the bad guys) were at home with their families for Eid (the war pretty much stopped for two weeks):

Eid-Al-Adha (Feast of the Sacrifice)

November 16, 2010

This Muslim holiday, celebrated during the time of the annual hajj or pilgrimage to Mecca, marks the willingness of Abraham to sacrifice his son Ishmael, as commanded by God. The day is consecrated with an animal sacrifice (they butcher an animal like a goat to eat), of which one-third is shared with the poor while the other two-thirds is enjoyed with family and friends.

This holiday was the day before this flight (Flight Nov 17th, holiday Nov 16th). I think you all can connect the dots to where I'm going with this.... There may be another reason why these guys were traveling together and may have been happy to have just spent the holiday with family and friends, like us with Christmas.... I guess this is why the military sends us to cultural understanding classes...? It's often easier to just jump to conclusions because we're ignorant of the big picture.

God Bless America.

Jimmy's Response:

I do not know you, but as far as I am concerned, they can take the cultural UNDERSTANDING for them and shove it up their asses. They can celebrate their "So-called holiday back in their own home towns. What they did on the plane was bull$hit, and they should have been thrown in jail for terroristic threat for interferance with transportation.

Can I please move out of this country? Why the hell are people so excited to come to a country that houses the likes of these idiots? I know there are a ton of them out there too! UGH. And they call themselves Christians with all this hate!

My response to him:

Haha, ok, well that's one way to deal with it I suppose. Good luck with that.

Obama Party Crashers

Coming from a family of people associated with the Secret Service, I find this funny.

For those of you who don't know, there are two types of Secret Service personnel: the uniformed type and special agent type. The men that I know who are associated are not the uniformed police type, which remind me of glorified rent-a-cop. The fact that these jokers made it past them, yeah, I get it. They didn't look dangerous, they looked like they belonged, they didn't set off any alarms, literally. So, they got in.

I was just wondering where they actually sat once in the party.

Sigh.

Taking a break from studying, I have started to wondering what the heck.  I really don't know what I'm going to do for  the rest of my life.  Tom has been talking about making out arrangement permanent, which I'm not against, but I don't know... Why am I always picturing my future without a man?   I guess it bothers me that I consistently think of a future sans man.  

I've got a case of the Mondays.

I need another vacation. Things have been a bit hectic. I have a pretty large headache.

So, I got a nice phone call and email from a guy I thought would be finally out of my life. It was a great feeling to have finally forgotten about somebody like that. I really have no love for somebody like that. Here's a sample of an email:

I want my AC, two books of cds, and anything else I own put back in my office this week. Funny, by allowing you to use that stuff, I'm still taking better care of you than you ever did me. You'll always be the girl who abandoned the man she supposedly loved while deployed. whore

Mind you, this is the same guy I sent like five care packages, even though we weren't together. But I never did anything. In retrospect, ever talking to him was a BAD idea on my part. Have you ever had your instincts tell you something that you decided to completely ignore and then it come back to bite you in the ass? Well, it came back and comped off most of my ass in this case. I've been kicking myself in the ass for not listing to my gut. My gut told me, "You don't want him. He's not your type. He's... annoying." I should have known better when the first lie surfaced. It's crazy how not once did he fess up. I had to pry every one, lie that is, out of him. I am glad to have moved on with my life... I feel like a whole new person without such a drag of a person around.

And then I get this email later in the day:

I'm sorry for calling you that. it's just hard. Everything reminds me of you. I'm glad you're happy

I'm happy to say that I really don't think about him at all.

Somebody like this makes me not want to ever be with anybody at all. I went to Lauren's wedding this weekend and was asked if I ever wanted to get married at some point. As happy as my dear friend seems, things in my life are not like that. As much as I once wanted to get married at one point in my life, I haven't figured out what the point is for me. I haven't been with somebody who really has made me believe that marriage is a worthwhile endeveur. There have been a couple of men who have once or twice sparked my interest and were what most women would call marriage material... But lets be honest. What the hell do I have to offer a guy? "Hey, nice to meet you, we may fall in love, but in 3 months I'm going to the other side of the world, in one of the most remote, obsecure countries in this grand world of ours... and I might be able to call or email most of the time, but I won't be able to see you for another at least 6-8 months (preferably 8 just bc it works easier to have like 4 months left when you get back...) And then when I get back, I'll likely be going somewhere else; I'm trying to get into law school somewhere in the south where I can be close to my fam for at least a little while and then who knows." Ugh. My life is depressing. I want to take that step out into the unknown, but with my heart the way it is, I don't know if I can handle getting it crushed/liquified again.

I don't feel like I'll be able to keep a guys interest as it is. This is Brandi being depressed. I'm sorry I had to let you into a not so pretty part of me :(